Sleepsong in a steady summer night

 

 

Dreams are floating in the dreary darkness of the night...

Someone, some lips, a smile, and her eyes...

You aren´t undone.

The path keeps open, the endless seek. Look for her.

Just swim in the beauty of her eyes - the darkness- til you find that light spot you ve been always looking for.


You go to sleep on your own.

You wake with your thoughts.

 

 

 

And it scares you being alone.

Desire of darkness

Weather forescast: 25ºC Max, 7ºC Min, windy, bright day



Night, night, a warm darkness shattered into the odd and unknown feelings.

If you could write them down, how will you do it?

Withouth a simple or complicated reason.
Without nothing clear around your mind, your throat.

So, suddenly, you appear there dreaming of her- one you have not meet yet.

You can feel her, you can even touch her but...

Unfortunately, it´s only darkness.

Desire.

You wonder how she will be in front of you when the time come.

My dream´s shadow

Weather forecast: Max 25ºC, Min 7ºC, Bright , windy



This night I have a dream, a dark one.

Lovely, I would say if I could remember her taste. Nor her eyes, nor her tender touch, nor her body, but her soul was enough to make me move inside- and so sweet...

Their heels sounded like a heaven´s bell. Her red lips, her all sight, stopped my heart.

And...

Suddenly...

Just the night. I found my arms around the pillow, hoping that such dream will turn into reality, a woman who will complete my soul.

I have a dream, a so so dark one - because it only happened in my mind.

Before to sleep

Before to sleep

I wanna be drunk to feel a little love because there´s only love when I ´am asleep, when the Moon holds the night sky between the silent whispers of these feelings deepen inside. Dreams where her touch is the warm Sun over my skin.

 

 

The strange days by Vetusta Morla

The life goes on. It continues even if you don´t want to.

Sometimes, sometimes, you have so many doubts about your life that you can´t know what is happening.

The life is enough hard to do it harder.

Anyway, there´re points that I understand at all. Why can´t the world be a better place? Why when you are giving to best yourself to change it in a nicer placer is there someone to avoid it?

Too many questions, too few answers.

It´s just a Sunday morning and the cycle begins again.

The Black Kite

Weather forecast: cloudy, 18ºC Max, 7ºC Min, brizzly

 

 

A far while I used to think in a friendly environment. I had everything –a lovely girl, some friends, I was studying my favorite field. Anything seemed to be perfect. I was so wrong.

I woke up with a terrible headache. A pack of wolves had stolen my little piece. I lost her and I discovered the hard work market.

It’ s past tense. A tiny tale in the time or I thought that. Well, It’ s true that my points have been changed.

I realise I have got a great opportunity as working in my field in the current situation. I was flying and I’ m flying and flying over the sky as if I were a black kite -a lonely wolf.

Past is never just past.

I’ve drunk too much these two years. Too much of that favorite beverage -girls. Trying to look for her in each tender touch, imagining she was there. Unsurprisingly, nothing have worked –I’ m a bit of loner.  No friends, despite it’ s supposed my work is filling the dead empty space of my soul.

I’ ve become quite independent. If you have to bear the loneliness, why don’ t I try to turn it in an advantage? I’ ve chosen to profit this experience as if it was a lesson. I’ ve learnt there’ s always something to learn – life itself is a continuous class.

Alone, alone.

If it’ s my condition and I can’t change it, why should it drive me mad? It’ s said there’ s enough time, that we have our own path. I don’ t know what I can believe in.

In fact, I was/am a pilgrim to find out what I can believe what I am looking for and so forth. It didn’t /doesn’ t matter stay alone in this or that place. I was/am travelling on my own – like when I travelled to Milan last May. Although it was a little and stable trip with no more complications than taking a plane and moving through one city, I decided to go to France in a sort of big adventure. I didn’ t know. I was bitten by the travel bug and I had/have itchy feet.  I needed/ need so much answers that I though it’ d be the best medicine I had ever had on my hand. I got it several bus and trains and I travelled more than 1,000 kilometers, speaking in a foreign language and experiencing the culture shock.

There are some true lessons from that people. There’ s one who is waiting for me, there’ re conditions which set our behavior and personality, that one girl won’ t limit my flight.  To sum it with some words, it’ s not my time yet. I need to keep on flying. Someday I could say all what I will have learned.

 

Unfortunately, the past is sleeping and it wakes when it wants to. In that way, I met a beautiful young girl. I felt strangely fine with her, although she wasn’ t fitted to my preferences. I stopped of drinking from lips about two beautiful months. And one day, my ex lovely girl was inside – the twister stormed my walls. How could I meet a girl in a different town which had certain link with the pack of insects and my lovely girl?  It doesn’ t matter. I don’ t mind.

 

To be honest, I ‘ ve realised I didn’ t love that young girl. She was not for me as  she said. I tried to hide my feelings in her. Oh, God, I’ m sick. I do really have fear of forgetting her face, her voice and her skin.

From my point of view, I lost her and we haven’ t  talked for 3 weeks. She may be upset. She told me my feelings were a lie, she’ d been crying 7/24, she expected  that we would be keeping in touch til the last breath of our lives. She told me she loved me –but in a different way. She couldn’ t lose me. She couldn’ t, she said.

After that, everything went okay or she said so. She was happy we could have been repaired our connection. Nevertheless, I haven’t  known anything  about her for three weeks. I guess she is refusing to call me.

Maybe everything is okay and she’ s to be focused in more important priorities. I can say at all.

 

However, the last week I thought  she was sleeping on my side. I was frustrated in the morning when she wasn’ t there. She’ s got a partner, a better partner. And me, I’ m a just an ex-boyfriend. I’ ve lost her forever.

There’ re persons who are destined to be alone like an old bohemian. So, I flight dreaming in her tender smile because this incredible light was a part of me and I have got it yet. A shinning Moon which leads me towards the blue sea. Flying and flying like the black shadow of that ship named ‘ The black kite’ –Milvus migrans.

 

 

P.S. > it seems  I ‘ ve written too much because of the lack of post in the past months.

Pic> Milvus migrans in the sky of the Spanish Region of Extremadura by my phone.

Soundtrack> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kx6FV2qR2TY

Magic´s Eve

Weather forecast: 12ºCMax, 0ºC Min, no clouds

Today is the most important eve for Spanish´ children because it is the magic. In these moments, every child is sleeping and willing for wake up soon but, what is the reason?

Oh, it is very simple. There is Santa in most countries (even in South America) , the Befana Witch (or whatever) in Italy and here, in Spain, the 3 Wise Men called locally "Reyes Magos" (Magician´ Kings would be the translation).

So, today you could see the 3 Wise Men parades throughout Spain, in each city, in each small villages. Personally, I love which Parade made in Madrid city. It is magic. There is a lot of creatures from the imagination: elves, forest´s creatures, TV characters, musicians, jugglers, creatures who come with the 3 Wise men. A lot of children at streets. It is awesome because there is illusion in their eyes and they are trying to get sweets thrown by Parades. I don´t know but I love when people is happy. A good feeling goes through my mind.

Then, children goes quickly home and soon they get slept but, before they put something to the 3 Wise Men such as bread, milk, turrón... and they put their shoes under the Christmas tree or closer to the Belén. They know it is very important because they will have presents if they have been good during the last year.

And tomorrow, children is getting asleep to check their presents and having a special breakfast based in a local sweet called "El Roscón de Reyes" made from flour, rum and other ingredients. It is a recipe very, very complicated but has a good taste. Furthermore, it can be find only in this time.

I remember one thing, one different thing, maybe because of the night, maybe because of dates, maybe because it is about her, my angel. I reminisce one issue. Maybe she is working in these moments. Well, I say it. In their home they were invented a play, a magic play to keep alive the feelings of this night. It is a play consisted on 3 components: a background (more or less a decoration), a mystery (that is a code which closes how to know where are and which are the presents of each one) and finally, the presents with such special decoration. So, they work all the 5th eve to transform the living room in another world who teaches you how to dreaming. It is awesome. For instance, one time there was a lot of cotton lines in any position, they were cotton everywhere like a snowy ground and there was a letter written who could be read with UV light. Soon, I understood where was my present and I discovered one in a weird suit made of cotton. She could make me dream and I  have always difficulties to have illusion. She got it. My loving darling, my lost angel.

  

Statistics and the block on writers

Weather forecast: 0ºC Min, 10ºC Max, sunny , 5m/ s Soudeast wind

Hi to all one day more! Although I haven´t  yet decided what subject will be treated, I want to write a little. It is sometghing strange because I can´t write on my novel but sentimental needs are ununderstandable. So, I have 2 things in my mind.

From one part, I am very shocked because of new statistics in Spain. In this case, they are about couple and some behaviours. In fact, according to the results, 80% of girls consider that the perfect guy is one who has money before other issues such as the physical appearance (more expectable) or the kindness. Incredible, I have experimented something similar because the first question made by girls in a flirting game is "Have you car? Do you work?" and I heart always her refusals with a negative answer from me. So, it is true all I have spoken about in older entries. But they are another statistic more shocking, 50% of women has been had a lover when they were in a couple. In each couple or in their hole life?  That is the question. Anyway, I am very upset people gazes money and physical things with priority because we are forgetting our souls and, sincerely, I don´t know which future we are going to have. At least, there are persons who don´t enter in such data. There is always hope in the humankind. I am not going to say that we are damned. I see some of light in our hearts.

From the other part, I had heard something very interesting about such situation whom every writer pass through, the block. That feeling based on you can´t write and you don´t know why and how fix. Well, maybe I am not playing fairly. Ok, maybe you don´t know that I am a writer in my spare time and that I passed by a time when I don´t have any inspiration. So, we can back to the new. Well, experts said that the block can occur in several cases. One when you think you will write the most marvelous book or when you think you write quite bad. Such case it is the most often. And, the another one occurs when you are too happy (or too sad) to write because your nervous system is over and, in that situation, they say you need to live those moments in order to continue writing in the future.

Personally, I find myself in the last case, I guess. Otherwise, experts said every writter writes in a time. Time, time, time. The star word. I would prefer to replace it with hope.

Finally, they said that every writer needs a time in their own to live and to create their worlds.

Consequently, today I am thinking about those issues, thinking, thinking... I hope I could write one more time. I guess that everything is gonna change when the light enters again.

Have a good day and sorry to hear those words.

28th day in Spain, What is it?

Weather forecast: 9ºC Max, 2ºC Min, no wind, sunny without clouds


Hi to everybody! Nice to write again a few words on this blog.

First, I would like to say you Happy Christmas and have a nice eve on 31th December. It is true that it sounds odd the way I say it.

Well, today I would write about a Spanish Tradition. However, it isn´t a holiday. 28th December  is the day of "El día de los Santos Inocentes". A day where anybody can make jokes with the people. In a certain way is very similar to the Fool´s day on 1st April in UK.

Wow, It is curious because the British use the word "fool" and the Spaniards "innocent".

Furthermore, in that day there is an specific tradition in a little village of Valencia´s Region, I guess. In that village (Ibis), some strange guys called "els farinats" give out the power from politics and they can govern until the Dawn. So, they made non-sense laws, for example, it is forbidden to stay on the street, to have shops opened or closed and so on. However, everybody that doesn´t follow their rules will be punished to have on their body a mixture made of flour and eggs.
Moreover, there is a weird battle where weapons are flour, eggs and fireworks.

I don´t know very well because, as you imagine, Spain has a lot of traditions according to which Region.

Have a good time!    

P.S.: picture from http://www.gentedigital.es/fotografias/galeria/372/fiesta-de-els-enfarinats-en-el-municipio-alicantino-de-ibi/

22th December: The Lottery Day (Spanish traditions)

Weather forecast: : 13ºC Max, 0º Min, no wind and no clouds

Good night to all! Yeah, I am here again. Today because I want to speak you about today. Uh, well, about yesterday because It is 00.24 am in these moments.

So, today (yesterday) had been one of the most days throughout a year: The Lottery day or the "El Gordo " (The fat man) Day!

In Spain, during all the year, people are buying lottery´s papers by that day. It is an usual present to their work mates, their friends, their families. Whoever.

Nearly the majority is waiting for that day with the dream of being rich, of change their luck, in order to stop and change their current situation. Otherwise, you could find people waiting in 4 hours queues at Madrid´s streets, until one day ago. People is crazy!!!

Well, and what is people doing on such day? It is very simple. Everybody is watching TV or listening to the radio to double-check if they had had any luck.

Furthermore, the numbers are sang by children with no parents and there is a lot of people who wants to watch in live. Some people goes with odd customs and, as a result, many spectators watch TV for that reason.

Personally, I don´t join because I find that like a way to lose money because it is very difficult to have luck and I think it is better to spend money in other things, and with more senses at this crisis time. Therefore, today I switch off TV and radio, I don´t listen the radio because , as you guess, they are speaking all the day about. It is frustrating.

So, today (yesterday) I had left my English study to visit one person, one important and especial person to me, nearly an angel. I could see that favorite landscape based on Madrid´s Region´s mountains, with their green color and with their smile... And finally, I am here dreaming of but it has no sense to dream because I know the true reality and, life keep on being life, with huge defeats and with little victories.

Well, I´m going to leave you because I have finished listening a strange bird song from New Zealand, the Kokako!!! He gives me relax.  Have a good day!

North Korea, another world

Weather forecast: 11ºC Max, 4ºC Min, no wind, no clouds

Hi to everybody! We are more and more closer to Christmas time. While a lot of people are buying the last presents, the US, Japan and South Korea´s citizens are worried about the evolution of North Korea after Kim Jong II died in this week. But, is it true a possible nuclear war?

Well, I do recognize it isn´t a simple question because nearly nobody knows about North Korea. Uh, okay, we know they are a nuclear power in the world and they are "war" lovers because of the most militarized society in the world. We don´t know any else.

In this summer, I have the amazing opportunity to being in a cycle of conferences about Asia and their past, present and future reality. Furthermore, I had the pleasure of being present at the speech of one of the few experts about North Korea. He has got the chance of working like a teacher in a North Korea university and he has also a medal from North Korea régime. He is a curious man, that is true.

So, it is possible that someone know better what I am going to say but I believe I can open people´s eyes to know better the reality of this country.

First, in order to understand the North Korean we must note that they haven´t a political state. So, it changes any analysis we could make. It is more like a religion. Yeah, I am speaking seriously, Kim Jong II was a God for them. So, it is normal you find a picture of each room in any home. They believe in the president like a divinity.

Therefore, we can guess stronger opposition against all that tries to change their ideas because someone isn´t against a dictator, s/he is against their God. In addition, we can see their incredible faith because 3,000,000 of people are died because of the lack of food, for instance, but they keep on believing. So, we can understand the idea about they live in a deep religion. I guess you have seen how people is crying at TV. However, they are bad consequences because the North Korean don´t make anything in their own, they need someone tells them what they must do in each moment.

Second, nearly 60% of population have nutritional problems, maybe because they can´t produce enough food or whatever.

Third, they love communism as you will know. For this reason, their only ally is China.

Fourth, they have one of the hugest armies in the world and, of course, they have the atomic bomb. Nevertheless, according to recent NATO´s reports they have an old army and, moreover, they no have money or goods to maintain their vehicles. So, if there is a war between North Korea and South Korea, South Korea could win without any problem. Okay, the big risk is the atomic just in case.

To sum up, I would like to note that a war with such country is easier than journal thought against an advanced army like the South Korean, the Japanese or also the US. However, I think there haven´t yet been a war for a one reason. Could you imagine 40 extra millions of people in South Korea? 40 millions of people who need to be ordered by somebody, like a robot? It must be frustrating to become free in a modern and advanced society to them, in a society with no God State, with no picture of Kim Jong, where no one says to you what you must think and do. But, dare you to observe the economic issue for South Korea?

Imagine 40 millions of people unemployed who raise the unemployment rate in an economic world power. Persons who need to change their mind. There will be a social drama and unsustainable for the main ships and trains exporter in the world. And, of course, there is a lot of benefits at risk in South Korea for most countries. So, I do think US troops haven´t done anything to avoid such hard possible situation.

Thanks for being there. Have a nice day!

Christmas meals in Spain

Weather forecast:  12ºC Max, 6º C Min, no wind and cloudy.

Hi to all again! Today I feel very happy but I don´t know why. I believe it could be possible I am like this way because I don´t stop.

Unfortunately, despite I had had an invitation for a climate change conference and I sent the confirmation, I don´t have a ticket. It is a pity because I was feeling like being present at this conference which is a part of Durban conference but with goals and aims for Spain, here at Madrid. Well, it is usual that someone with better formation or more important than me has a ticket first.

If you like, we will speak about something different. I am not sure whether if you know already or it is also frequent, the fact of having a meal with your work mates or your friends at these times before the classical meals with your family ( 24th December dinner, 25th December and 6th January lunchs). Well, here in Spain, there is such tradition. Hence, employers and employees have a meal to celebrate these times and, of course, there is one similar with friends.

So, it is a opportunity of meeting better your work mates out of job and of speaking about other different subjects. Yeah, it is truth that there is some risk. For instance,  if you were drunk and you talk nonsense with your boss closer, you would begin to wish having any luck after your huge action.

In the other hand, there are such reunions with your fiends. A perfect moment to meet them in this  stressed world. Indeed, I have one with my brother´s friends. Unfortunately, it is in Foxter Hollywood, an usual and expensive restaurant in comparison to others cheaper and more original but it is the group choice.

I quit you because I want to make some exercise. Have a good day!  

Christmas decoration in Spain

Weather forecast: 10ºC Max, 5ºC Min, no wind, cloudy

Hi to all another time!! Currently, we are more and more closer to Christmas time. You can walk on the street and you can see shops´ windows decorated, public lights and, of course, there is such particular smell of roast chestnuts. Moreover, there is such cold in the air, with clouds of breathes. Nearly the majority of trees has lost their leaves and Madroño tree(Arbustus unedo) is in fruit. A particular evergreen tree and before common tree in Madrid Region with their red fruits similar to Chinese Lychee(Litchi chinensis) in shape, that probably you may taste because of some chinese restaurant, but surprisingly in English is called as the strawberries-tree. Anyway,I would note that such tree is Madrid city´s symbol with the company of a she-bear, though there is no bear in these moments and is lower and lower Madroño´s distribution. Whatever...

So, we can speak about another subject. Indeed, I was surprised of Santa´s Parades in North America. Because I have some acquaintances from Canada and they told to me 2 weeks ago that they were in one on Toronto (Canada´s capital). I don´t know if it is often in North America to wait until November to do "Winter Parades" but here, in Spain, we have our Christmas Parades on January. So, why are Santa´s Parades made one month before Christmas in North America? Indeed, I remember one in New York City during thanksgiving day according TV news.

Maybe it is very simple to figure out because it is certain that since November everybody begins to buy gifts, goods and decoration and, as it is more and more often to associate holidays with commercial activity, maybe the reason is to improve commercial balance. I don´t know.

Otherwise, I remember now, while I am typing, that these acquaintances told me that is possibly because of cold because they had a lot of cold on November. Thus, with the Parade on November, they avoid snowy environment and more cold. One thing, I am not very sure because such acquaintances are from Spain and they lived 8 months on Toronto. So, I have the doubt.

Today I have set up the post entry before writing and, okay, you will say: he has forgotten the title. Yeah, I don´t because I would introduce to how Christmas is in Spain.

Friday, I could see "El Belen" in my village centre but what is the Belen? "El Belen" is a sort  of representation of Jesus born. It is a diorama, a scenario with several buildings, some Romans, some figures of such Age, the Three Wise Men and Jesus and their parents. So, according to the tradition, each family begins to decorate their belen. Somebody build it and nearly the huge majority buy it. Anyway, each Belen has different common things such as the Three Wise Men, Jesus´s parents, their animals and the Star (the Star that guided Three Wise Men to Jesus). Maybe you make yourself the following question: and the Child, where is he? Okay, according to the tradition, we place the child in such representation on 24th December when "he borns". For example, in mass of "El gallo" (coquerel) on midnight 24th to 25th December the priest places the child on Belen of the Church. The most curious is  tradition exists from IV century and each person choose how he/she wants to configure their Belen, if they wanted one small, one bigger, with waterfalls, with Romans, with building, which ones figures they will use an so on. Nevertheless, it is more often to watch one in a mall or in a city building (which are the bigger Belen) because modern times make people more lazy and, of course, it is easier to buy a Christmas tree with their decoration, in spite of one home can have a Belen based on Jesus´s parents and Jesus (after 24th) and there is a huge variety of prices.

In the other hand here there wasn´t Santa but Three Wise Men. So, on 6th January there are the gifts because they had left to each children if the children had been good boys (or girls) along the year. However, if they were bad, they have no gifts but a piece of coal. As you can imagine, I guess each children has any gift, despite of economic hole of these moments. I guess I speak about one day before 5th January.

Unfortunately, we lose our traditions because of American fashion. So, we use more and more frequent the Christmas tree and we make gifts on 24th December and don´t on 6th January. It is a pity but times are changing and we must accept without forgetting our past.

Okay, I have finished today, lol. See you later and I hope you have a great week!

P.S.: it is pic of a truth Belen built by http://www.ojodigital.com/foro/off-topic/174135-belen-2007-a.html

The magical dream

Weather forecast: 11ºC Max, 3ºC Min, no wind, sunny with high clouds

Hi another time!! So here I am. I could speak about  shark´s liking in China; Bisphenol A issue at America and at Europe; the scientific fight in Antarctic Region between Russia, UK and USA but sincerely I don t feel like.

So, I will speak like an older person and I will speak about something different, something that is more a feeling or a personal impression than a contrasted new. I guess it is a consequence of being an artistic mind because sometimes I have this weird sensation for the beauty in general patterns.

So, yesterday, I was going to the Centre Library of my previous faculty sited on a green zone and universitary of Madrid´s heart. I was reading in French the book of Fred Vargas "Les vents de Neptune" (Neptune´s wind) and I was imagining this Canadian landscapes in winter with a plenty of lakes, a mass of forest and very cold in the air. I was trying to figure out how it would be the changing leaves at these places, thereby the public transport time died. When I was arrived to the metro station desired I could find this park called Moncloa.

I could pick up a bus (or coach) to arrive to the Centre Library of my faculty but I preferred to through this Moncloa Park, in spite of that means 15 minutes more. However, I have never taken this transport. So, I was walking a little faster to finish the last bureaucracy to have my diploma but I could feel this pure air and, suddenly, I could see a lonely tree without leaves between the conifere side, the ground was covered of a golden cover in a circle area. Time stopped. I couldn´t breath with such a beauty. Between the dark coniferes there was a kind of celestial tree that has born on ground with the cost of losing their leaves like they were wings from an angel. Unfortunately, I wasted several minutes in this position and I had to fix the last university things. So, I went away, keen on thinking about. Sometimes, I realize that I am an odd animal caged and unknown that no one and I can´t understand.

Finally, I had arrived and I fixed everything. They told me that everything had done and now, I must wait the receipt of my diploma that will be sent to my home. At the end, I am closer to have a little paper that show I have finished my degree 5 months ago. You know, Spanish bureaucracy, nothing in comparison with the Canadian.

And I passed to the Library  and I took 3 books in English about my degree to improve a little my vocabulary.

So, I finished there and I could go back to my home. Another time I had to choose the coach or my own feets. Do you know the answer, don´t you? Yes, I decided walking to the metro station.

I could enter in this park, covered by leaves that were drift by wind. They were traces of last rains. Coniferes were silenced like the park itself. I could see pigeons, black birds (Turdus merula) and little parrots (an invasive alien specie) on the green grass. There was no one with 3 persons like exception and then, I went up and down by little hills (It is a curiosity but these hills are a common origin at Local War. Indeed, at XVIII century a lot of people were killed there by Napoleonic soldiers and hundred years later, the stage of Local War, a war were foreign countries tested the weapons of WWII such as the Soviet "moscas" (flies ) and the German "Stuka" (or whatever it is written)).

So, finally this park is a kind of temple for lost souls, with coniferes and autumn trees. It seemed a paint with red, gold, dark and pale green, like colors, thereby you can figure out a little trace of their solemnity. I finished in a little water steam. Two black birds were watching me on the banks, shocked by the deed of seeing a human in that morning. The water sound was like a drug to me. It was magical. I know, I was dreaming in an alive dream. Surprisingly, I saw another time. I saw a golden color more intense than other. I could see the pieces of gold, a shiny sun on the Earth, whereas Sun lights went through out by branches and leaves. A lonely individual. I kept walking and I found 3 students below another golden tree, a tree like the first I had seen but huger and higher;  the trunk had several feets, a mission impossible to around with your arms;  they had leaves yet, in spite of there were ones on the ground. I had a lot of curiosity because this gold color was more intense than other leaves. My scientific mind was working. It wasn´t a Populus genre like other trees. It was odder and strange. I took a leave, while my mind was working and I got it. It was Ginkgo biloba, a fossil alive and Chinese like origin. Indeed, I think I said their name and maybe the 3 students that they were able to identify this tree, looked at me with a surprised face and, at the same time, if they were known the species name.

I guess, sometimes I can be very crazy and I think It is the reason I am lonely. People doesn´t have spirituality. Everything is physical in this life. Maybe I am a romantic lover from XIX century but this is dreaming one more time.

Have a nice beginning of week!

P.S.: I am so sorry that I hadn´t a camera to draw the image but I hope I will draw the dream with my own and poor words.

These little feelings I feel right know

Weather Forecast: Max 14ºC, Min 9ºC, rainy, no wind

Hello to all the world. I am here again after this one week break. I am so sorry but that time I felt like doing anything. It is a bit strange because I am not lazy and I love doing whatever but that time...  Maybe it is because of being unemployed, or because of  loneliness I felt and I feel. In addition, I read hardly newspapers these week. So, I feel odd as if I were in Lovecraft´ tales.

It is well known that currently situation in Spain doesn´t help. And this election thing with everybody talking about politics and saying "vote this or vote that". With any doubt, I think votes must be linked with our genes and I must be a kind of monster because in Spain, if your family used to vote and vote for right-wind, you must vote for this. I don´t believe in. Maybe it is why we are like this way but well, I guess I am upset of this little world and as many people knows, I need to go away and discover a new life. At least, I must find a bit of hope in human.

I believe I need a job to turn into an independent person, to forget loneliness and to feel better. With this way I will be fine and I won´t have any time to think in my poor life, like a bookworm but more boring. It is usual I am lonely , with no friends, with no love.

If love is a tainted thing which is used to hide your biological needs. If someone is in love with you because he/she loves you because he/she wants anything from you. Faith is lost and personally I see that in this life is more important a car and money for your partner. Maybe it is my experience, I don´t know but if you can´t pay a car, a weekly lunch in a restaurant or a weekly cinema ticket, if you can´t buy a lot of things or some travels, if you can´t pick up her since her home until her home, if you don´t do everything how she wants to,  NO ONE WILL LOVE YOU. And I say it in capitals. At 25 years old I have discovered nobody believes in this feeling in a pure way but It is hardly to say. I can´t understand how it is possible, maybe I must be alone in life.

Unfortunately, I have discovered too friendship exists while you can give something to the other person. It is annoying.

Maybe everything has a simple answer: maybe I wasn´t at the right time, at the right place with the right people. Therefore, I must think I need more time or I need to be in another country or I need to meet another people. Or maybe today is no time to thinking of, a day to be in bed, to look at another direction.

Like Platon said: I only know I don´t know anything.

Try to have a great week!

P.S.: a pic from my summer journey to Carril village, Galicia region in 2006

this horrible nightmare (politics in Spain)

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Hi, people!!!! I can say I have left you during a week at least because of several things such as, a cold and another Greek tragedy, lol. So, with the remaining of this flu, I have decided to write a little.

Okay, of course, this month is a bit boring with this Spanish Election´s thing. Here, you can switch TV channels and you will find at any time, people talking about politics. So, you turn off TV and you decide: "Oh, let´s go to the street. I ´m going to see Autumn leaves on the ground of parks" and what do you find? Yeah, more politics!!!! Everybody is talking about it, also in the biggest Park!!! Therefore, you can see such a huge spam advertising at the street and you will hear from each person a talking about this subject...

Finally, I fell in this hole and, as you can see, I speak about it. It is like a virus, like the flu. You look like fine and indifferent but one day, you are sick. Well, It is the same thing when an idea turns into an ubiquitous matter, like black matter.

So, I have read both programs but It is very curious to take a look in them. Mainly, I can summarize:

Mainly Left-wing political party:

-Improve renting house
-New taxes for banks, for money deposits and for nuclear and hydrological power plants
-Invest more money in public services
-Jobs and contracts more temporary

So, more taxes and more taxes (it looks like a Right-wing political party), more taxes to the people who saves money and for this kind of energy. Dear political chief, do you know hydrological energy is the cleanest? Just stop thinking in huge dams because it is possible make little dams and rectify all the negative impacts within mini hydrological. In addition, we have an excellent technology.

And what do you do with nuclear power plants? Will you down the investment in security? Will you build a lot of thermal power stations like in Germany?

And what about investing more money in public services when you have cut off 30% in health and education services? Have you changed your mind suddenly? Will you continue spending more than earned?

And what about more temporary jobs? With this way, enterprises could fire people more easily. I am not surprised with qualified people leave Spain... Because... It is very hard than one of 2 young people are unemployed and we have 21% of unemployment (the double of Europe statistics) (21% from a calculation which takes 2001 population).

Mainly Right-wing political party:

-Make people buy the 700,000 empty houses with economic incentives
-Create more jobs
-No spend more money than earned

Okay, this looks like a dream´s child, you can say you want to have more jobs, to sell every empty house but how will you do? At least, you say the most logical thing, you can´t spend more than you receive...

But no one talks about food, education and health policies. Nobody has said nothing innovative about Renewable Energies and, surely, we couldn´t achieve  2020 European Energetic goals ... So, you can understand my frustration when I hear these things...

Well, have a nice day!!!!

Spanish "Halloween": their sweets and one tale

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Hi another time, people! I am bored here this evening of the Sunday and I have remembered that I spoke a little about the holydays of Halloween before the American fashion, that is holydays of saints in Spain.

Well, do you remember that I said in several villages from the Region of Extremadura, there are a tradition that consists on children sing a son to the neighborhood, like in US in these time? Well, I seek to know a little more and I have discovered that this is called  "Chaquetilla" or "a little jacket" and people gives what they have. I know I said people gives nuts and sweets but it isn´t true. People can give nuts, fig dried, pork sausage, black pudding made from pumpkins, quince jelly and sometimes sweets (what children wants to receive). Then, they go to eat them in the field. I don´t know their origin.

In addition, it is very curious because there were fruits with a candle in but, however, it isn´t a pumpkin but a watermelon. So, you can imagine your garden will be decorated with empty watermelons?

Anyway, this tradition is nearly disappeared because of American Halloween as people moved out this little villages to join to the city.

However, there are several sweets in this holydays if you can pay them, of course:

-Saints´ bones or "huesos de santo": made of marzipan and with a cover of syrup, they have different fillings. They have the form of bones. They are the most known and their origin is in Castilla and in Spain, mainly.

-Fritter or "Buñuelos": a pastry made of flour and sugar with different filling. Despite it is more common in Semana Santa holydays, you can find this sweent in bakeries in these holidays.

-Quince jelly with  different nuts: from Extremadura region and people eat it in the field with a special bread.

-"Pestiños": a pastry made of flour, oil and sugar and then fried with a cover of honey. Its origin are in Andalucía and Extremadura regions. It is more frequent in Semana Santa or Christmas holydays.

-"Gachas de leche" or "Milk gachas": a pastry made of milk, flour and sugar or honey which is eaten with milk and bread. It is tipical in Andalucía region.

-Chestnut roasted: mainly in Galicia region, because of we are in Fall.

-Panellets: made of a pastry of lemon, sugar, potatoes boiled, eggs and almonds or pine nut. Mainly in Cataluña region.

May be, one day I translate a recipe for you.


From the other hand, a part of religious sense, there was a kind of death veneration and some authors thought in paranormal activity this night between October 31st and November 2sd because of romantic culture which has a link between love, death and paranormal activity. So, there are a tale from Becquer called "Soul Mountain" or "El Monte de las Ánimas" and which is based on a local tale from the North centre of Spain in the region of Soria. I would summarize a little this tale:

<<So, in Dark Ages, a pack of knights of noble lineage were hunting in that Soul Mountain but they were back to their home because it was November 1st or "The Saint´s day" and they spoke that this name was due to a mysterious tale: Several years ago, this mountain was a property from templar. In times when Christians fought against Moorish, the King has demanded the help from templars to conquer Soria city, instead of demanding help from Castilian knights. As consequence, there had been a fight between templar and Castilian knights until the King solved it and their men buried all the deads in this fight in the fields of this templar mountain. So, people thought in night November 1st to 2sd, the souls runned with animals scared and no one could be this night in the mountain.

Finally, that group arrived to their home and the male character said he would give her a diamond like gift to the female character because it was a day to celebrate, the day of saints. She said this gift could threat her will. So, she said she had lost a blue neckerchief in the Soul´s Mountain and if he tried it, she would accept his gift.

Hi was scared about the idea but he took his horse because he thought that he could kill more wolves like he had done in the hunting.

Minutes died, hours died and he wasn´t back. She woke up because someone had said her name but it was just the wind. So, she listened Soria bells and it was November 2snd, the day of people dead, and she began to pray. She was very scared and she slept. The day had come and she woke up thinking anything had passed and there was anything to be scared last night. But, suddenly, she saw her necherchief in blood in her room. Her eyes knocked out of position... She died because of terror.

In this morning, when servants wanted to inform her that the male had died because of wolves, they found her immobile and dead.>>



P. S. : images are taken of https://teveoenmadrid.wordpress.com/tag/huesos-de-santo/ , http://milpostres.blogspot.com/2008/11/buuelos-de-viento-de-crema-y-de-nata.html  ,   http://www.forovegetariano.org/foro/showthread.php?t=257 ,  http://www.cuchilloytenedor.com/2010/11/02/receta-pestinos-extremenos/ , http://lacocinaentucasa.blogspot.com/2011/05/gachas-cordobesas.html , http://www.alcadima.com/esp/index.asp?secc=/apartados/oferta_de_noviembre_ , http://lacocinadebender.com/2008/panellets/postres-pasteleria/

Words and ideas in languages

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Hi to all. Today I am a little twisted because I must set up clocks with an hour less. No, I don´t leave my country, unfortunately, and this is because of Daylight Saving Time (DST). Such an odd name to say that! Yesterday I have this subject with my French friend that sometimes there are words more appropriates in one language, for example, there is the word "aguantar" in Spanish which means different things such as to bear, to endure, to support, to withstand, to survive the past of time, to hold, to put up with something, to resist, to hold on, to hang on, to last and maybe another thing I have forgotten.

I will give you another example in French that maybe you know. There are words "gourmet" and "gourmand" and "glouton". May be, we can use then like synonims but we will be doing a fault. "Gourmet" means a person who loves the quality of food or drink, that is, he/she eats or drinks in order to identify tastes , while "Gourmand" it is a person who loves eating or drinking and who can´t resist to eat when he/she see food or drink, while "Glouton" is this kind of person who eats very much and a lot of food.

So, it is like a TV show when you speak another language because there are different ways to understand the life or to think about something in each language. It is a kind of challenge because in your language you use an only word to describe an idea and it doesn´t exist in the language you are speaking in that moment. And it is a curious thing because you can use words from another language to describe an idea with a misunderstood as consequence. In this way, my French friend who lives more time in Spain, have a lot of difficulties to speak with only French speakers. May be it is because mind of 2 or more language speakers is more global than people who speaks only one. Therefore, you can understand more things about life, about different cultures and, personally, I think it is a beautiful thing you can show an idea who doesn´t exist in your language and finally, that you can communicate with a foreign person.

May be you think I am crazy but not at all because every people who speaks more than one language can think like me.

Indeed, I believe language is the representation of ideas from one culture, from one way to see and understand the life. So, I find very useful as experience the fact of speak different languages but with one condition: always you must communicate with another person. You will say, "Oh, who is going to speak one language without this finality?" I can say that because, in Spain, there are several regions that speak more and more one language and people forgets the language that links us (the Spanish) with the consequence of, may be in 30 years, a person from Cataluña region could no communicate with a Spanish from another region.

And there are also these languages which have risks to dissappeared with the consequences of losing this way of thinking about like a lot of languages in India which have less than 100 speakers.

Have a good weekend!

Spooky Halloween

Weather forecast: Min 8º, Max 20º, Cloudy, No wind

Hi to all, we are next to this known party around the world. Yes, it s yet the weekend but most people will be in a party of curious customs, someone will be dressed like a spider man with no pants, another person in a Catwoman suit to show their fat to everybody and any guy dressed like a woman. "Dude, it s a party. Let´s dance!" Stop. Are you sure to dress like that? Because any usual person won´t be dressed like that, yeah, we know that you begin with an innocent custom and later  it comes that you are hangover and you don´t remember anything. So, there are 3 possible cases:

1-You are in the local commissary. Hint: put your pants next time, little friend.

2-You are a weird feeling in your... Do you know what I have saying about to be dressed like a woman?

3-You feel dirty with a terrible smell of alcohol.

Of, I will add an additional hint,  you can have a bad taste in your mouth. So, don ´t drink from the glass you find. Do you remember this scene in American Pie?

Fortunately, here in Spain, Halloween is new, despite, the crimes rise up in this days. Well, maybe I speak earlier because today is no 31st but I can say party nerds will go to be dressed this weekend.

I have seen the beautiful ,and strange for me,  landscape with orange decoration. For example, the pumpkin fields, the light´s in houses, garden´s with skeletons and Mc Donald´s clowns. As you can see in the pictures below. I guess someone has made the laundry in the City Hall of Quebec City (Canada) because no one could be notice it. You can read a bit of Quebec City´s Halloween here (http://www.lifeinquebec.com/featured-4/quebec-city-hall-halloween-decorations-2010/).

You know, you can see a plenty of stupid things, with no sense, like puppets, vampires and wolf from Twilight and so on. Furthermore, most people wants to be tricked or have a good nightmare in live. Therefore, the main ennemy character of Saw would have luck to find new victims for their 66th film.
Poor celts, we have forgotten the sense of Shaman´s eve with the night more larger in this time. And now, we consider Halloween like Walpurgis´s night, the witchs´night!

Anyway, I find very amazing this party and their decorations in all the city, because people are happy and linked with their friends. But here, in Spain, it is very different and ,like I have spoken with my friend from Israel, it s more an emotional holyday.

The 1st November or "Sants day" most Spanish people go to cemeteries to give flowers and remember their civils dead. So, many people take these holydays to visit their villages of origin, to see their families and to remember their people. It is a day to remember the death in the catholical sense and it isn´t a party to be dressed. Nevertheless, people give candys (more precisely nuts, figs dried and others fruit dried) to children who sing a special song to neighbours, at least in Montanchez zone in the region of Extremadura . However, the majority of Spanish  go whether to the beach (if weather wants to) or to other countries.Well, there was not this tradition of frightened tales, in spite of two Becquer Tales in XIX century. But all this will change because we love party than the catholical sense we have.

Personally, I used to watch spooky films in this eve until the dawn until few years ago. And, last years, we used to have a special rol play game session. Unfortunately, this year seems to be cold with no plans. So, maybe I return to this childhood tradition I have.

Have a nice weekend and remember my hints!

Spanish university´s job fairs

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Hi to all another one! I know It must begin with the apologies but I shall do because my life is like a tornado which doesn´t stop. I move for here, for there looking for a job, I break into a rich house, I rob a bank and so forth. So, you can see I don´t stop but I am not known like others twisters like the most of graduates in Spain, a Greek tragedy in others words.

Last week I have visited a job fair at my university and it was a bit pitiful because no one wants an environment scientist and only accept your cv if you want to go abroad and you speak 3 languages but you must pray to be employed. Yeah, it doesn´t matter you speak 3 but you must speak only English, German or Chinese and, of course, the Spanish and you will work in Spanish later.

In addition, in these universities´ job fair (at least in Spain), employers seek candidates to their internships (that is without a salary and you pay yourself your transport fees) or their practices ( that means you work like a normal employed, may be more time and with more responsibilities, and you will earn the minimum possible). Yeah, have you remembered this thing about contracts in Spain? Well, if you link this information with that a person can have a practice employee until 30 years old or a temporary employee forever, you realize the sad situation for a Spanish graduate who has wasted 25 years old and a lot of money to work free.

It is curious because you can hear such a foolish idea like that, Spanish graduates must cost as US graduates. Well, I say the background. Here all the education is "free" (paid from the taxes in your salary) until the post high school. Then, you have 2 paths (apart from working): study a job or pass a test in order to begin a degree. The costs are the following:
-80€ (about US100$) per year for study a job and  this sort of study have a duration of 2 years. So, 160e to sum.
-1200€ (about US1500$) per year for degrees.

These are the costs for high education more or less without the price of books, transport, allocation and so forth. Look at the cost per year for a degree. In this cost, a student pay a 1/6 directly because the rest is paid for the Government (that is from the taxes on each salary in Spain). Consequently, Government wants a university student pays the 6/6 and may be a little more if possible, despite each Spanish will have the same taxes in their salary.

Furthermore, Spanish is different because a degree can need more than the time estimated. For example, there is a degree of 5 years but this on the paper because the most people finish it with more years, may be because of selfish people but it is no a coincidence the most people need more time than the estimated. So have anyone thought about the possibility that degrees have a bad design? No, it have not! So, for example, the Bachellor of Science of Environment Sciences, there are 5 years old on paper but Education Service says that the most people finish it with 6 years old. Is it possible this in UK, for example? Not, it isn´t because if a UK degree have an estimation of 5 years, people finish it in 5 years. So, may be you have a degree for 36000€  with their ideas or up because Government wants to achieve US fees (with the other fees).

May be you say that is cheap in comparison with UK45,000 pounds (about 68,000€ or US81,000$), or CAN100,000$ (about 100,000€) or US100,000$( about 80,000€), per a 5 years degree in UK, Canada or US respectively. It is truth from several experiences that is you have a degree in US or Canada, you find a job with such salary which you can recover the money wasted in 5 years approximately.

Besides, the problem is the following, there will not be a help from the Government but a loan from the bank. So, if you can´t recover the money wasted until 15 years or up (if you have the luck of working) and if you must pay the interest rates for this loan, may be a usual Spanish student not rich would need 20 years to recover their inversion.

Like result, a Spanish Graduate will marry with the bank and the enterprise along all their whole life. Okay, I forgot we need buy a house and you need apply for another loan from the bank. So, we will be married twice.

Like this way, you can understand why Spanish graduates move to others countries to find a true job, while sharks (that are enterprises and banks) wish catch another slave at job fairs. So, I can´t say that is good luck to find a job in a university job fair.

Well, I must sleep a little because tomorrow I am invited in a conference about Renewable Energies in Spain, since 2010 until the future. I tell you something, I guess.

Have a nice day!