Wind of change

Weather forecast: 6ºC Max, 1ºC Min, sunny with some clouds.

Hi again! It seems that everything is able to change little and little. Once time I wrote in my novel a sentence which I remeber "There is hope while there is light in your eyes"- said a female character. I used to think that it was just a beautiful pack of words.

However, at this time, I begin to realise that I have to wait a bit more. For instance, these 2 weeks have benn great and surprisingly, when I didn´´ t expect anything of this sort. And now, I have news about  working in a multinational petrol´s company, about working at the Helsinki´s University and at the Cambrigde University-but in the UNEP, that is the environmental branch of United Nations.  Unfortunately, I passed the first step to work with the UNEP but not the following ones... Anyway, it seems a reality I could work in the other places and I must make a choice. A challenge. And me, I love challenges.

On the other hand, I realised that I am currently in a process of change - the new me. I supposed that I needed to cheer up myself, in spite of I love her and it is hard to forget. Anyone tolde me or -maybe I have read it- that everything depends on my point of view. It is like Damian, this famous book, where a child who was growing up, realised that he can get everything only with his will. Or this French´s quote that said that you need firstly to build inside before to build outside.

So, I consider I am building inside and I begin to show I belive it in order people believes I am stronger, confident and I have a ´can do´ attitude.

Thanks for reading invisible watcher and have a nice day. Wow, I feel like listening the Bon Jovi´s song.

at the beginning of February

Weather forecast: Max 8ºC , Min 4ºC, overcast

Finally, I am here again. Hi to everybody, because I have forgotten it. I am so sorry about this time without writing. That was as simple as I couldn´t. It is the truth. The pain has made me breathless like a dead body. I wish  I wasn´t able to feel with such a strenght.

Nevertheless, the human is always thinking about impossible things. How can I keep on loving a ghost from the past? It is an endless nightmare.

Furthermore, It is even worse when you realize you have changed and you realize you aren´t you who you are, that you are so different you can´t recognize you. How many bad things the pain can do? To be honest,  I can´t answer it. I only know that I love her with such a passion I remind her everyday before I got asleep. I know she has a boyfriend and she said me twice I am not the person who has fallen in love of. Today I am a past tense  from a verb. That is I can write a lot but no one is reminding me. It is stupid.

Well, I guess It is enough for today. I have written a little at least. So, I guess I must back to the mirror and say everything is fine. Have a good day.