Hello to all the world. I am here again after this one week break. I am so sorry but that time I felt like doing anything. It is a bit strange because I am not lazy and I love doing whatever but that time... Maybe it is because of being unemployed, or because of loneliness I felt and I feel. In addition, I read hardly newspapers these week. So, I feel odd as if I were in Lovecraft´ tales.
It is well known that currently situation in Spain doesn´t help. And this election thing with everybody talking about politics and saying "vote this or vote that". With any doubt, I think votes must be linked with our genes and I must be a kind of monster because in Spain, if your family used to vote and vote for right-wind, you must vote for this. I don´t believe in. Maybe it is why we are like this way but well, I guess I am upset of this little world and as many people knows, I need to go away and discover a new life. At least, I must find a bit of hope in human.
I believe I need a job to turn into an independent person, to forget loneliness and to feel better. With this way I will be fine and I won´t have any time to think in my poor life, like a bookworm but more boring. It is usual I am lonely , with no friends, with no love.
If love is a tainted thing which is used to hide your biological needs. If someone is in love with you because he/she loves you because he/she wants anything from you. Faith is lost and personally I see that in this life is more important a car and money for your partner. Maybe it is my experience, I don´t know but if you can´t pay a car, a weekly lunch in a restaurant or a weekly cinema ticket, if you can´t buy a lot of things or some travels, if you can´t pick up her since her home until her home, if you don´t do everything how she wants to, NO ONE WILL LOVE YOU. And I say it in capitals. At 25 years old I have discovered nobody believes in this feeling in a pure way but It is hardly to say. I can´t understand how it is possible, maybe I must be alone in life.
Unfortunately, I have discovered too friendship exists while you can give something to the other person. It is annoying.
Maybe everything has a simple answer: maybe I wasn´t at the right time, at the right place with the right people. Therefore, I must think I need more time or I need to be in another country or I need to meet another people. Or maybe today is no time to thinking of, a day to be in bed, to look at another direction.
Like Platon said: I only know I don´t know anything.
Try to have a great week!
P.S.: a pic from my summer journey to Carril village, Galicia region in 2006
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